fuck, im a senior

I am feeling like many things I have grown accustomed to, are ending. And then, there are some things that never really took off, that I wished and hoped would eventually find momentum, but instead appear to be coming to a sputtering, unimpressive halt. I wish to make all this last. I want to make it all matter more than just once. I long for something more. At home, alone, I long to fill it with people and chattering voices, in the company of all my friends and family, I wish to be alone. I am wanting.